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Bayar deposit bilik dan 2 bulan sewa pada 4 April 2019
A new life has begun
A ghost to overcome
A dream to fulfil
Give me two years
In the mean time, assign a new meaning
to Wednesdays and Fridays

sweet are the roses

only seven dates a day
only fifteen grapes a day
only three cloves of durian a day
only seven mangoesteens a day
only seven dokongs a day
all on different days
because I am already too sweet
far too sweet

Jotta 3

Today 9 April 2019

Beli pellet RM38-00 31/03/2019
Beli set lampu utk kambing RM13.90
Beli lampu spare
Beli buai RM450
Tengok bilik sewa baru 1/4/2019 selepas hujan lebat
Hujan lebat lantai bilikku di villa air bergenang 1/4/2019

Confirm bilik sewa 2 April 2019

delicious

I read this before I was 13
Am reading it again
Wondering now if I understood polygamy back then
(writing as if I understand them now ha ha!)
Am refining my understanding at this moment
Definitely looking at it from a different perspective
A new feeling
Am experiencing literal preservation of life values (1937 and of the present)
What an author !


Boboy Bambino given to Mom 26/03/2019

my bambino

 1 volume kacang pea hijau kisar
1 volume tepung gandum
1 volume tepung jagung
1/3 volume gula kisar
250 gram butter
A little Corn oil

Boboy lahir pada 23 Mac 2019

go ahead

clip my wings

when the going gets toughthe tough get going

Ia telah bertahun menjagaku dengan baik

Apa salahnya aku jaga ia dengan baik juga

Mendahulukan makanannya

Sebelum aku sendiri dapat makan

what's brewing ?

in my head

tuhan ambillah nyawaku

I have no self worth

I have nowhere to go

peanutty

Red Herring Khamis till today
Pak Lang Mat Noh dtg 16 March 2019, petangnya buat cookies
UM & SS loan release advised Sunday 18/03/2019; Nuren and two daughters came to have a peek at Anjo

1 volume kacang kisar
1 volume tepung gandum
1/3 volume gula kisar (atau kurangkan)

terakhir

Bila kamu tahu kamu akan pergi meninggalkan, kamu akan buat persediaan dan persiapan. Kamu tidak mahu membebani mereka yang tinggal dengan tugasan kamu yang sepatutnya kamu selesaikan semasa kamu masih ada.

Kalau kamu akan meninggalkan dunia ini, tentu kamu kena lengkapkan diri untuk bertemu tuhanmu. Sudahkah terampun dosa-dosamu itu ? Akankah dijauhkan kamu dari siksa kubur dan azab neraka ? Aduhai ..

Tinggalkan sedikit wang tunai untuk pengendalian jenazahmu. Barang-barangmu itu, ambillah siapa yang mahu.

Kalau kamu akan meninggalkan tempat kerja kamu, tentu kamu tinggalkan tanpa sebarang kerja yang menjalankan di dalam satu. Tinggalkan nota untuk setiap fail yang kamu kendalikan.

Last Raya together
Do yo notice the tense on our faces ?
Do you notice the colours of the flowers
in picture above,and colours of my,
 Khaulah and Hajar's scarfs?

Ratu kembung pada 9-10 March 2019 tapi dah lega now

Jangan bagi pellet dan jagung dah

Biar Mak yang bagi

Result SPM Khaulah yang gempak 15/03/2019

Bawak Mak dan Inson joli-joli kat Mydin 12/03/2019

ideal death

Ideally I want to die in my sleep, on my bed, in my room, 

or 

while I prostrate, on my maroon praying mat, beside my bed, in my room.

Most ideally, I wish to die on the day Allah forgives all my sins, big or small no matter what position I am in. You know, while driving, while at work, while walking to buy food ..

waya

can a direct transfer be done to one purchaser only, after the strata title is issued and the loan settled ?

perhaps the red herring is not red after all...

Ratu kembung siang kelmarin 10 Mac 2019
Bagi makan daun samak dan kuku garuda
Pi tengok Shuhada kat HSB 8 Mac 2019
Hujan 2 jam malam tadi 10 Mac 2019

the devil's workshop

cookies in my mind

realiti bukan ilusi

Beli dedak jagung dan pellet pada 3 March 2019 RM55 (40kg) + RM48(50kg)
Advertise for vacancy at the Bar Room on 4/3/2019

a word a day

dispensable means can be done without

happy

5 March gi collect title Adik kat PTD KS-done
Renewed my road tax
Tempoh bunting kambingku 155 hari
my robe hilang entah ke mana
ok since i am going to cease practice
I realised it in preparation for Dr Y's case on 25/2/2019

belajar buat ketupat

1 kg beras pulut susu
Plus Minus 3 stalks daun palas
Same volume of coconut milk - 4 1/2 kole oren
vary your coconut milk thickness depending whether you like your ketupat to be lemak or not
garam sikit, gula sikit (kalau nak)
daun pandan
Jagung (kalau nak)

Rebus dalam 3 kole oren air  menggelegak
Sampai air kering.
(Dapat 40 biji)

Gulai daging : Try to make it dry a bit

just a poser

Can a drug addict be a smoker too ?

just wondering

tomato berries

Tomatoes are berries.

In Botany, a tomato is a berry ie a fleshy fruit without a stone or a pit (pips or seeds do not count) produced from a single flower containing one ovary.

something to emulate

my mom has a very high self-restraint 

she can take about three potato chips and stop

just like that

whereas me, I have to finish the whole can

free as the breeze

Nature calls
Nature can't wait
(ha?)

I am finally free to go

with condition that I find a replacement

which condition I find a breeze and reasonable

I will never leave in the lurch
Life is too short
Let us build no more conflict

All is well that ends well

to recuperate

Away to the mountains to recuperate

Note : I read Heidi when I was about 10. Never did I imagine my life would be somewhat similar to Clara in that story,  at 50 years of age.

to never be angry again

life is too short

diabolique

good is bad 

or

bad is good

knowledge is dangerous

perhaps one refuses to learn

because with knowledge comes responsibility...

anjoku

dari sinar matamu yang redup itu

aku telah tahu

kau adalah putera raja k-pop 

yang telah disumpah ahli sihir k-pop durjana itu

perih hidupmu menjalani liku-liku seekor kambing

setahun yang lalu, beginilah rupa kau ..

tenyeh tenyeh dan... tada...

Hajar called 14 Feb 2019

blame it on the floral pattern

Probably you yourself sabotage your God-gifted talent.

Jotta 2

Beli pellets 10 Feb (Arwah Kak Ani meninggal hari ini 2015)

Basuh kolah 12 Feb

My Notice of Resignation 12 Feb 2019

the natural selection

you can select whom you want to be nice with

or whom you can just scoff

bungaku

walaupun rupamu tiada 

wangimu sayup-sayup setaman

flowers everywhere

Ina sampai tengah malam/awal pagi nanti.
Mak bertolak lepas Jumaat besok.
Holidays are here ho ho ho

Pembetulan : 1/2/2019 Mak bertolak malam ni

diversity

We are all different people fighting different wars

away to the conference of goats

Jotta

Just in case I forget, beli dedak pada 19 Jan 2019.
The big crisis on 20 Jan 2019 until today.

ciao

There's  so many thing I will miss, but I want to move on.

Note : Perhaps moving on is something different from what I have in mind, something else altogether

life is ok

I told myself it is ok to commit those mistakes. They are normal mistakes. Any person gaining new experience would commit the same mistake. Learning is human, and committing mistakes is part of learning.  If reputation of the firm has in any way been tarnished, it should have taken place a long long time ago,  not because of my mistakes. Given time,  I would be able to improve, and minimise those mistakes. Probably become an impeccable practitioner even.

But given that I am going to quit end of this year, the opportunity will never come. I will simply leave with this conscience in my mind.

Who knows what God keeps in store

Hoping for the best 

yet expecting the worst

Me and Mom and Bunga Stesen Bas

IF

Started IF today. Eat from 8.30 am until 3.30 pm. Only GreenTea, or Earl Grey, or English Breakfast Tea are allowed during fasting. To continue until Sunday.

See if there is any positive alteration to my insulin resistance.

Note : Attempt failed on first day. At around 6.45pm I broke fast because I finished the pudding that Fahmi had turned down. Started again from 8.00 pm, will break fast today at 1.20pm. So, 17 hours of restricted calory intake today; second day.

Ratu dan Suri

Tak tahu tarikh lahir Ratu dan Suri. Ralatnyer...

dolu-dolu

sedapnya..

so, is it a surprise that I should eat tosei at PokokCeri today 9/1/2019 ?

oo la la

can't help this

the best moments in my life are 

when my mom enjoys my less salt no sugar  less/no  seasoning cooking
and we both eat simple

symbio

a charity is brewing in my head

to give back what Surrounding has given me

I shall survey perfectness of the venue