Week 22nd : 20th May till 26th May

20th May  Cuti Sebab Wesak. Basuh kolah. Im started mowing.
21st May   Yoyen n Stevie masuk kurungan. Maybelline foundation. The Sultan comes to the                                 mosque for Nuzul Quran function
22nd May   Nuzul Quran today. Ambil brg-brg di bilik sewa. Ina balik KL lepas buka posa
23rd May 
24th May 
25th May    Beli baju raya Im
26th May   

ramadhan

Ramadhan selalu membuka pintu-pintu kemungkinan

Tentang mudahnya berpuasa ganti dan berpuasa sunat
Tentang mudahnya solat ganti dan solat sunat 
Tentang mudahnya bertadarrus atau habiskan satu mashaf sekali setahun

Masihkah ada Ramadhan lagi ?

my bro Naim

probably the most good looking guy on Earth right now
whose image will help me write my first love novel
ha ha ha !

You know what ?
I had actually written my first love novel
but the publishing house has rejected it
Now is the the time to alter and rephrase
hu hu hu !

Week 21 : 13th till 19th May

Milford Sound

13th May    Absent from work. Bas Hajar 11.45 pm at Shahab Perdana. Mom fell off 
                    motorbike and sprained her knee. Sprained my foot at Menara Alor Setar 
                   green around 10.30pm

14th May    Online buying from Mazliza
15th May    Cleaned up fridge. Tudungs from BFF
16th May    
17th May
18th May     Ina sampai early morning
19th May     

frolic

Begitu jauh aku datang

Tiap-tiap hari untuk bekerja

Ya Allah, gugurkanlah dosa-dosaku kesemuanya kerananya

Peliharalah aku daripada mundar-mandir di maya siber

pada waktu bekerja

my best vacation

(Ratna and Dewi looking pretty)

I don't want overseas trips

I just want some time off with my goats

50

dinamika

selembut-lembut air
sediam-diam ubi

Week 20 : 6th till 12th April 2019

Autumn in New Zealand

6th May      1st Puasa      BS 5.6 at 5.18pm, 5.4 at 7.22 pm

7th May       Pi LHDN dgn Remie. Buka puasa sambal udang

8th May       Buka puasa temenung masak asam. Serawa pisang.
9th May      Buka puasa gulai udang. Serawa labu
10th May   Hujan lebat every day from 1 Ramadhan till today .H balik today until 13th. I wanted her
                   to experience country life as far as I could provide. Sampai pukul 6.00pm. Buka puasa
                   dengan Yusri and family.

11th May   Mom fell off motorbike and sprained her knee
12th May    Serawa jagung campur caca

sebersit cahaya di hujung terowong

Perjalanan kami telah jauh
Mungkin kami telah nampak cahaya di hujung terowong itu

Week 19 : 29th April until 5th May

29th April 2019   
30th April 2019
01st 0May 2019   Cuti. Potong rambut. Tanam pokok jarum 7 bilah atas tanah Che Gu Mat.
02nd May 2019    Buat kacang kuda pedas
3rd May 2019
4th May
5th May                Tengok anak bulan

yang akhir-akhir

Yang tinggal padaku hanya Al-Quran
dan kitab-kitab muktabar
Yang aku tak sempat menelaahnya ..

seven

I was unsure of myself
Always wanted to please those I loved

Week 18 : 22nd to 28th April

22/04/2019     PTD Kota Setar 9.30-10-25 am
                       IPPD Kota Setar Laporan polis tak boleh buat

23/04/2019     BDB Hq
                       IPPD Kota Setar

24/04/2019

25/04/2019    JR hantag pelam harum manis

26/04/2019    Pulut Pelam harum manis for breakfast
                      Pi Aman Central with the girls.
                      Kenduri Rumah Pak Su Ya lepas Isya. Sapna pun mai.

27/04/2019    Pi Nat Pendang. Sans Insun. Beli tomato, jambu, oren
                      Beli udang. Beli pokok jambu batu krekmekmot takde biji.

28/04/2019    Semai pokok pelam harum manis

flowers for Mom

I take heed of my mom's remark

I must write more slowly now

my handwriting looks nicer and neater too..

Pepasangan dalam Kabus Salji

Did you see the light ?

I am struggling with health issues..but I will never give up
My random  blood glucose  still yo-yo'ed from 4.3 to 8.6 around 5.40pm
And there are many other things about which I will never give up

Weight today is 61.3 kg, less 0.9 kg from last month
Been taking tomatoes and apples for a week now

Kacang Tanah

From Google

1. Fertility - ada folate

2. Fights Depression - ada tryptophan

3.  Stamina in bed (hah ha ha!)

4. Memory Power ada Vitamin B3

5. Blood Sugar Regulation - ada manganese

6. Protect from Cancer

7. Protects from Cardiovascular diseases

8. Prevents Gallstones

9. Lowers Cholesterol levels - ada copper

Antara lain..

buntang

ketika orang lain sibuk mencanang kebaikan diri

ampunkanlah semua dosa-dosaku

Week 17 : 15th till 21st April

15th : Proposal accepted.

16th : On leave. Appointment with doctor. Next appointment is 09/07/2019.

Today 17/04/2019 Went to Jitra and UUM, Sintok. Arrived office at 4.30 pm.

Today 18/04/2019  did IF from 9.00pm night before. Cleaned up kitchen. Very convenient - skip breakfast. Will take lunch around 1.20 pm. Done.

Today 20/04/2019 Bawak Mak dan Insun jalan-jalan Pendang my town. Sapna pun ikut.

Today 21/04/2019 At home completely. Tanam mulberi, Ixora, Jarum7bilah, sepit udang.
                               Nisfu Syaaban. Mak puasa.

my nieces

Arwah's daughters

Dah besar pun kamu..

shades of love

On the anniversary of my stroke (I didn't even know it)
I attended Mak Teh's matter at
Alor Setar Court Complex
In attendance : myself, Mom, Mak Teh and En Izmeen

On 15/04/2019
Proposed The Proposal and was accepted

life's lessons

I am looking for signs of burnout...
there's none
obviously

back to Momback to Nature

Bayar deposit bilik dan 2 bulan sewa pada 4 April 2019
A new life has begun
A ghost to overcome
A dream to fulfil
Give me two years
In the mean time, assign a new meaning
to Wednesdays and Fridays

sweet are the roses

only seven dates a day
only fifteen grapes a day
only three cloves of durian a day
only seven mangoesteens a day
only seven dokongs a day
all on different days
because I am already too sweet
far too sweet

Jotta 3

Today 9 April 2019

Beli pellet RM38-00 31/03/2019
Beli set lampu utk kambing RM13.90
Beli lampu spare
Beli buai RM450
Tengok bilik sewa baru 1/4/2019 selepas hujan lebat
Hujan lebat lantai bilikku di villa air bergenang 1/4/2019

Confirm bilik sewa 2 April 2019

delicious

I read this before I was 13
Am reading it again
Wondering now if I understood polygamy back then
(writing as if I understand them now ha ha!)
Am refining my understanding at this moment
Definitely looking at it from a different perspective
A new feeling
Am experiencing literal preservation of life values (1937 and of the present)
What an author !


Boboy Bambino given to Mom 26/03/2019

my bambino

 1 volume kacang pea hijau kisar
1 volume tepung gandum
1 volume tepung jagung
1/3 volume gula kisar
250 gram butter
A little Corn oil

Boboy lahir pada 23 Mac 2019

go ahead

clip my wings

when the going gets toughthe tough get going

Ia telah bertahun menjagaku dengan baik

Apa salahnya aku jaga ia dengan baik juga

Mendahulukan makanannya

Sebelum aku sendiri dapat makan

what's brewing ?

in my head

tuhan ambillah nyawaku

I have no self worth

I have nowhere to go

peanutty

Red Herring Khamis till today
Pak Lang Mat Noh dtg 16 March 2019, petangnya buat cookies
UM & SS loan release advised Sunday 18/03/2019; Nuren and two daughters came to have a peek at Anjo

1 volume kacang kisar
1 volume tepung gandum
1/3 volume gula kisar (atau kurangkan)

terakhir

Bila kamu tahu kamu akan pergi meninggalkan, kamu akan buat persediaan dan persiapan. Kamu tidak mahu membebani mereka yang tinggal dengan tugasan kamu yang sepatutnya kamu selesaikan semasa kamu masih ada.

Kalau kamu akan meninggalkan dunia ini, tentu kamu kena lengkapkan diri untuk bertemu tuhanmu. Sudahkah terampun dosa-dosamu itu ? Akankah dijauhkan kamu dari siksa kubur dan azab neraka ? Aduhai ..

Tinggalkan sedikit wang tunai untuk pengendalian jenazahmu. Barang-barangmu itu, ambillah siapa yang mahu.

Kalau kamu akan meninggalkan tempat kerja kamu, tentu kamu tinggalkan tanpa sebarang kerja yang menjalankan di dalam satu. Tinggalkan nota untuk setiap fail yang kamu kendalikan.

Last Raya together
Do yo notice the tense on our faces ?
Do you notice the colours of the flowers
in picture above,and colours of my,
 Khaulah and Hajar's scarfs?

Ratu kembung pada 9-10 March 2019 tapi dah lega now

Jangan bagi pellet dan jagung dah

Biar Mak yang bagi

Result SPM Khaulah yang gempak 15/03/2019

Bawak Mak dan Inson joli-joli kat Mydin 12/03/2019

ideal death

Ideally I want to die in my sleep, on my bed, in my room, 

or 

while I prostrate, on my maroon praying mat, beside my bed, in my room.

Most ideally, I wish to die on the day Allah forgives all my sins, big or small no matter what position I am in. You know, while driving, while at work, while walking to buy food ..

waya

can a direct transfer be done to one purchaser only, after the strata title is issued and the loan settled ?

perhaps the red herring is not red after all...

Ratu kembung siang kelmarin 10 Mac 2019
Bagi makan daun samak dan kuku garuda
Pi tengok Shuhada kat HSB 8 Mac 2019
Hujan 2 jam malam tadi 10 Mac 2019

the devil's workshop

cookies in my mind

realiti bukan ilusi

Beli dedak jagung dan pellet pada 3 March 2019 RM55 (40kg) + RM48(50kg)
Advertise for vacancy at the Bar Room on 4/3/2019

a word a day

dispensable means can be done without

happy

5 March gi collect title Adik kat PTD KS-done
Renewed my road tax
Tempoh bunting kambingku 155 hari
my robe hilang entah ke mana
ok since i am going to cease practice
I realised it in preparation for Dr Y's case on 25/2/2019

belajar buat ketupat

1 kg beras pulut susu
Plus Minus 3 stalks daun palas
Same volume of coconut milk - 4 1/2 kole oren
vary your coconut milk thickness depending whether you like your ketupat to be lemak or not
garam sikit, gula sikit (kalau nak)
daun pandan
Jagung (kalau nak)

Rebus dalam 3 kole oren air  menggelegak
Sampai air kering.
(Dapat 40 biji)

Gulai daging : Try to make it dry a bit

just a poser

Can a drug addict be a smoker too ?

just wondering

tomato berries

Tomatoes are berries.

In Botany, a tomato is a berry ie a fleshy fruit without a stone or a pit (pips or seeds do not count) produced from a single flower containing one ovary.

something to emulate

my mom has a very high self-restraint 

she can take about three potato chips and stop

just like that

whereas me, I have to finish the whole can

free as the breeze

Nature calls
Nature can't wait
(ha?)

I am finally free to go

with condition that I find a replacement

which condition I find a breeze and reasonable

I will never leave in the lurch
Life is too short
Let us build no more conflict

All is well that ends well

to recuperate

Away to the mountains to recuperate

Note : I read Heidi when I was about 10. Never did I imagine my life would be somewhat similar to Clara in that story,  at 50 years of age.